probably the last blog for right now because i am tired

I feel like I am fucking pretending and I am sick of it I am not intelligent at least that is how I feel and I would rather stop lying about who I am and be the poor little faggot kid who lives in the rundown trailer park that is roach infested and full of holes and no hot water heater or shower. I am not this intelligent man who is off beat in his sense of humor pretending that he is intellectual and knows what is what and has class and all that stupid shit. I am just a failure and I am going to live as a failure. And be proud that I will probably just be a low level manager-type and nothing great. I should be grateful that I have come as far as I have and not ask for more.