What the hell?

I created this whole blog yesterday using this list that I got from chileanchristy's blog and now where did it go did I post it right? Any way I am going to post more on this blog. So far I really like my job at the book lady, a used book store that is owned by Joni she is cool but I like it when I am here by myself doing my own thing. oh Well I hope that this blog gets published

A List of Me

My good friend Christy used this list and I thought I would unabashedly copy her--she has an excellent blog at this site her blog name is Chileanchristy.

Layer one : on the outside
Name: Christopher Allan Burchette -I have a long name and when you do numerology with your name this can be a problem
Nickname: Chris or Chrriissy (yes a lot of people draw it out like that)
Birthday: July 23rd 1978
Birth place: Lumberton NC- the city where Michael Jordan's Father was shot and killed.
Eye color: Hazel
Hair color: Medium brown with gold highlights in the summer
Height: 5'11-barely
Righty or lefty: Righty
Religion: See my Blog name-all religions except anything affliated with Christianity (sp?)
Sex: Gay ohI mean Male

Layer 2-on the inside
Your hertiage: Southern, with a bit of the square states thrown in
Who do you look like: honestly both my parents
Your Weakness: Books, Movies, Chatting on Gay.com, Krispy Kreme,.
Your fears: Hell- stupid southern religous guilt, germs, Std's, people who are ignorant and mean.
Your perfect pizza: the white pizza at mellow mushroom

Layer 3 Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow
Your most over used phrase: "That is Crazy
Your best physical features: my lips
Your bedtime: usually 12-1am
Your Fav missed memories: People who truly know me know that one of my ex's Dennis' broke my heart but Sunday mornings cuddling with him and knowing that it was just and me and him, conversations with various people, my good friend Davy in Lumberton, Actting, and of course sex with certain people.

Layer four:
Your pick vanilla or chocolate: Both
Single or group date: honestly I like small groups better
Adidas or Nike: I have a pair of Adidas
Favorite candy? Varies on my mood mostly twizzlers and milky ways
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee or Cafe Au Lait with a shot of vanilla

Layer 5: Do You?
Smoke : after two drinks or when my internal nicotine levels get low, mostly no
Curse: yes
Sing: yes and badly
Think you've been in love: Yes and badly
Want to get married: no
Motion sickness nope
Think you are attractive: sometimes, I do know that I am not ugly but of course being attractive is different
Think you are a health freak: no but I have all the info to be one
Get along with your parents: I do now
Like thunderstorms: yes but I hate getting my head wet
Play an instrument: I took 3 semsters of piano.

Layer 6: Have you ever
gone to another country: Canada when was a toddler
Eaten an entire box of anything sweet: (blank on purpose)
Eaten animal sub products: YES I like pork rinds-bbq preferably- hey I am southern
Been on Stage: Yes quite a few times
Gone crazy: yes meltdown twice
Gone skinny dipping: No Never
Played a game that required a removal of clothes: No Never
Been caught doing something: yes
Been called a tease: I am gay Aren't I

Layer 7: Getting Older
Age you hope to be married: This is a sore subject for me and if you don't know why,I am gay and you are an Idiot or just a republican
Number and names of children: Is this a Joke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??
Describe your dream wedding: What the fuck ok if i could it would be on Halloween --Ceremony Traditional atire, reception costume party of course
What do you want to be when you grow up : ?????????????
What country would you like to visit: England and Australia, and Italy, and Vatican City

Layer 8: Moments
Funny moment: alot
Happy Moment: The day I quit Waldenbooks
Saddest Moment: Too personal
Hurtful Moment: When my brother called me a Faggot in front of the whole family on Thanksgiving
Scared moment: the first time I took my first HIV test---It came back negative
Proud Moment: When I realized I could take care of myself
Moment you wish you could take back: Too Personal

Layer 9: IN the numbers
#of drugs taken lately: 5-day antibiotic and a bunch of over the counter cold meds
# of cds you own: way too many to count
# of piercings: None
# of times your name has appeared in the newspaper: maybe 15

Layer 10 Getting Deep
How would you change the world: Big ?--public health care is top priority and birth control overpopulation scares me If you could change one desicion what would it be: getting involved with my 2nd married man
What is the one thing you could change in your life right now: I would get rid of all my debts instantly.

Balance

I don't know if I will ever find inner balance. As someone that researches the eosteric in his free time I have read in astrology books that I am a cancer/leo cusp (technically I am a leo but not by much so I just say that I am a cusp), water and fire, introvert and extrovert, hermit the homebody and sociable chris. A big dichotomy rolled into one human flesh that can barely keep the conflicting traits from totally ruining my life. I use to think I was bi-polar but that is not true-- no great highs followed by great lows --no not me. I also knew this was true after dating someone who is bi-polar. I am ADD. Now that is true and it is a scientific explanation that to me explains the esoteric reason but knowing what you are, knowing who you are, and what you do is not really finding balance. I need balance between my desire to be a complete hermit that loses himself in himself and a person that needs to interact with friends and people and loves to chat and have fun (not saying that you can't have fun as a hermit but it is a different kind of fun.) The fun I have as a hermit is selfish fun, and too much hermit time is self destructive and isolating.
I use to think that meditation would help in finding that inner balance but being ADD, meditation is like telling a 10 year old to watch educational television when the cartoon newtwork is just a click away. If you don't believe it I have nephews try it, it doesn't work. I do find that meditation works at the whole psychic thing, if you meditate more you calm and quiet the mind which allows room for the small inner voices that help you to actually have a chance at being heard. Enough rambling. bye for now